Kitty Romano: Something’s wrong, isn’t it.
Salvatore Romano: No. No, no, no. Don’t say that. Don’t say that. I’m not myself.
Kitty: What does that mean?
I believe there can be a moment in any marriage when your spouse says or does something, and suddenly you see a stranger. And it rocks you to your core.*
I don’t know what Kitty saw.
I mean, of course I know what Kitty saw. I saw it too; watched it with her. But I have no idea if she has fully articulated for herself what it was exactly that she witnessed. I don’t know if she even has the vocabulary. What has she been exposed to on the subject of homosexuality?
Kitty’s face.
I don’t know if she’s worked it all out. For certain what she has worked out is, she does not know who this man is. And she is horrified.
And so now I can safely say, poor Kitty.
*And just in case you think that being influenced by television is a new thing for me, that belief is practically a word for word lift from something that Nancy says to Hope in Episode 2:16 of thirtysomething; Courting Nancy.
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I find it funny that Trudy has come to bed similarly attired and her father made comments about Pete, er, gardening. Kitty was the same color as a ficus and needed tending.
Ha, I almost mentioned John Waters.
See, I'm thinkin' John Waters was probably not representative of Bal'more.
Actually, Barry Levinson's Diner and Tin Men would be relatively contemporary to MM S1.
What a scene! And what possessed Sal? He's so guarded; how did he lose himself in that moment. Great acting by both.
Btw my mother was about Kitty's age in 1963, from the Midwest, and from stories she told me the women her age were more than aware of homosexuality and the sexual orientation of co-workers, etc.
(Not to threadjack but to those who expressed last week skepticism that Paul would be getting high in the 50s — I asked my 89-year-old neighbor, who's been a professional musician/performer since she was 15, if she recalled people smoking marijuana in the 30s and 40s and she said "Oh my, yes." In fact she named a rather famous jazz musician with whom she's jammed and said "He was high all the time." LOL. )
I think what possessed Sal was:
1. Genuine enthusiasm for the project.
2. Kitty is his best friend and he does love her. Remember the laugh they shared at Paul's party? I think he's really connected to her and values her, and he forgot himself in that moment of sharing.
In some ways, Sal's the best husband on the show,
Well my take of Kitty, for what it's worth, is that her thoughts were running more along the lines of "not a man" because I know that before my time people thought what was wrong with homosexuality was something to do with it not being natural to your sex, as if you are not a real man or a real woman if you are gay. You are identified with the wrong sex. I think that was how people saw it.
For some reason I don't think Kitty would be able to start thinking of gay sex in that moment or get an image of Sal kissing a man or anything like that because she might have a meltdown if she did. I think she was just thinking "wrong wrong wrong." I can imagine it would be very very hard for her to come up with something more specific.
oh I mean more for what it will mean for her life, not because she can't imagine it, period.
I got a visual of Nathan Lane in The Birdcage during Sal's commercial breakdown for Kitty. Sal let his guard down too much and poor Kitty got exposed to too much of the real Sal. I also don't know if she fully comprehends but the seed has been planted.
They are good together and there is love but it's not true love for Sal.
I kept saying "Poor Kitty" aloud while watching it. And I don't usually talk back to the TV. But – Poor Kitty!
I tend to agree with those who think Kitty's epiphany only goes so far as the strong realization that something is WRONG.
Making the visual connection of Sal with another man? nope. She strikes me as the type who can't visualize such a situation – for anyone – certainly not her husband.
Reminds me of meeting my mother's teacher-aide and her fiance at a buffet-event. It was 1979, I was 15 — the fiance was impossibly handsome and well-groomed. The aide, Elaine, was a 5'2" blond, with curls, like a baby doll. She was VERY church oriented, bible on her desk at work – prone to witnessing, often.
Mom told me the fiance was studying to be a minister – made sense to me, for her. But something – something, was tweaky. (my early gaydar?)
Sure enough, two years into the marriage, he comes out and instead of divorcing – they spend the next 3 (!) years in counseling and 'reform' programs to try to *cure* him from being gay. This was in the 80's.
Would a 1960's Kitty would be willing to have that secret out and then to stay?
I love the Sal storyline – so many layers!
I think Kitty is aware of homosexuality but it wasn't discussed and out in the open as now, many cities raided gay bars and had anti gay laws. She is aware of homosexuality but the thought, my husband is gay wouldn't occur to her. But it did after Sal's commercial breakdown. I did sympathize with Kitty, but I think Sal has genuine affection for her and yes, love but it's more like brother/sister love than two lovers. The marriage isn't fair to either of them.
In relative terms, consider how the S-C crew reacted to Kurt outing himself in S2. Sure, they are aware of homosexuality as a concept, but not in their experience. Kitty likely has a similar understanding at best.
What a great acting job on both of their parts. Terrific scene.
It was so good that it was actually painful to watch. Sal was open and trusting, and Kitty was following, at first in delight and then in consternation … and then she was just lost. But he was, somehow, fine.
This is top-flight stuff. The best thing on any size screen, big or small.
Yep, there was a definite epiphany — an A-Ha moment, but I don’t know exactly how clear she is on the gay thing either.
To quote Willow: “I knew it! I knew it! Well, not ‘knew it’ in the sense of having the slightest idea, but I knew there was something I didn’t know!”
horrifying…I felt her fear of the unknown. I surely doubt that she is aware of homosexuality although being from New York has its “advantages”
She’s not from NY, she’s from Baltimore.
I feel bad for Sal, she’ll probably leave him at the same time he loses his job. All this focus on him can’t be good for his future…
I just commented on this in the episode thread, but I also wonder just how far along those lines Kitty was thinking… it’s one thing to think your husband is especially sensitive and emotive, another to think he’s a bit fey, and another entirely to realize he has always been homosexual and you are irrevocably married to him. I don’t know if she would allow her mind to head down that far, and in fact I wouldn’t be surprised if that knowledge is something that, once realized, she chooses to completely repress.
ny/Baltimore all the big city mentality
My mom–who grew up in suburban California and graduated from high school in 1972–found Kitty's supposed gaydar a little unbelievable. She commented that while she knew a lot of "flamboyant" men when she was younger (she did high school theater), it never even crossed her mind that they might be gay. It wasn't that she was unaware of homosexuality; she just grew up in a heterosexist environment. The fact that Kitty's eyes seemed to go big whilst Sal's wrists were limp and was performing in a very feminine manner… it struck me as inauthentic. What REALLY affected Kitty was that her husband didn't want to touch her. His flamboyancy shouldn't have had anything to do with it.
frostybrandon,
To use a Mad Men-ism, “I’m not sure that’s true” about the big city mentality. Baltimore might not have been nearly so cosmopolitan as NYC (the bellboy at the Belvediere notwithstanding). I think your 1st impression, that Kitty is not all that aware of homosexuality, may be closer to the truth (at least within her experience).
Baltimore gave us John Waters. Other than that I know nothing of the gay cultural climate that was the Bal’more that Kitty came up in.
Millicent (@#12), thanks for mirroring what I was thinking. I know that the past is always whitewashed, but people have known and talked and recognized and hazed about homosexuality and other non-heteronormative behaviors since time immemorial. Of course they were sheltered people, but that's just what they were; sheltered from the culture at large, which has always had people who vary from the strict gender and sexual roles prescribed, and the rules to repress them.
Kitty was raised Catholic. I'm sure she sat through her share of anti-homosexual lectures, from friends family or clergy. I think she knows what a homosexual is. I think she saw Sal's very gender deviant performance, and saw how raw and passionate he was to show it to her, and realized that he was violating these rules she has been told about. Maybe she had never suspected before then, but there it was, plain as day. In my opinion, she put it all together in that moment. The months with little or no sexual contact. The aloofness. The feeling that something is wrong. And there it was. She saw what was "wrong".
Eep, typo! I meant "Of course there were sheltered people".
The actress who plays Kitty was incredible in this scene, as was Bryan Batt. I think Kitty knew something was amiss, but after seeing Sal talk about his commercial shoot, she put the puzzle pieces together and has a strong idea that he may be homosexual. My sense of Kitty is that she's reasonably astute and not sheltered.
Oh, I was really struck by this scene! My husband wasn't quite following what was going on, as he's very hit-or-miss on watching with me. When Kitty's face starting contorting, he said, "What's her deal?". My only reply was, "Her gay-dar is going off." We had a discussion about if she would really get that he was gay in that time, but I finally saw it as she might not have seen it as specifically gay, but knew something wasn't "right".
And people did have a good grasp of homosexual behavior back then, most just weren't flamboyant about it, as many more folks were closeted. I recall my grandmother telling of when she was a teen in the late 30's/early 40's, that she didn't take much interest in boys and once her father sat her down and asked her if she liked boys or girls! This was in the midwest as well. I guess the family was relieved when she met my grandfather. I guess for that reason, I wasn't very thrown by Betty's "little lesbian" remark as being anachronistic either.
Kitty's face was echoed by the Patio's clients when they viewed the ad. It's what we asked for but it *is* a failure. Sal missed his wife's reaction, and then went to apologize … to Don. I think he's also apologizing, probably subconsciously, for what Don saw in the Hotel Baltimore.
Sal has a lot of work to do. Like Peggy, he has no role models for living his life authentically. Where's Kurt? He could help both of them.
The light bulb over her head was a million watts. This is the 60s not Victorian England. Kitty saw clearly that her husband is a "show type" read: gay. She did not look revulsed – which I loved – just overwhelmed with the concept. Bryan Batt is yet again, a show stealer. Love him.
Just reading the comments here, from people who were alive then or whose parents were, we can see there's quite a range. It's possible it would never occur to her in so many words, it's possible it would. There have always been gay people, and the closet has never been hermetically sealed. Some people are more aware than others.
In 1963, the "swish" as a gaydar trigger was, if anything, more pronounced. It's what you saw in movies or on TV instead of seeing someone identified as gay. It's what you saw that made you turn to your friend and whisper, "Do you think he's, yknow, like that?" So, after months of feeling "something is wrong," and not getting any sexual attention, for Kitty to see that has got to be a trigger of some kind.
During this time, there might not have been a clear collective knowledge of homosexuality, but there was a one about being 'effeminate'. Kitty saw the unguarded Sal acting in a way she categorized as effeminate. I doubt she connected the dots of any previous actions of Sal's to that moment, though. I bet she is aware of homosexuality, but finds it unbelievable right now that she would be married to one. They've both got a long road in front of them, but now Kitty has a clue.
Of course she knew it. She just needed Roger to be sitting there by the bedside (erm… not in that way although I'm sure he wouldn't mind tending to her needs) to cut to the chase with his one line of the episode while everyone else is chasing their tails for what's wrong.
I was fully onboard the Poor Kitty train after the premiere and the complexity of this story is one more reason why I love this show. I think there was a big double standard with Don and Sal's afairs in Out of Town. They're BOTH married. I *know* it's business as usual for Don and a joyous and momentous night for Sal to finally get some manloving and be free to be comfortable in his own skin for a moment but there's a wife who's going to be hurt by BOTH, regardless of Sal's special set of circumstances. There's another circumstance: we saw Don right before he married Betty and he was smitten with her. Sure, probably for the wrong reasons and superficially, but he was in love with her. Sal married sweet, devoted Kitty because he freaked out that a guy hit on him. He married her to be his beard, but I can't hold it against him because he doesn't even realize that and he was terrified and this was the only defense mechanism he could cling to. It's obvious in this episode again that he doesn't want to hurt her, that he cares about her and he really doesn't know what's "wrong" (He needs Roger to say it: "You're a fruit!"), but still… poor Kitty.
There's a great documentary called The Celluloid closet http://www.sonypictures.com/classics/celluloid/ which explores the portrayal of homosexuality throughout the history of motion pictures. What's so striking about it is that there is representation of them dating back to silent films. Some of it is coded obviously, but they are there. Surely anyone in a major metropolitan area wouldn't be unaware of homosexuality in 1963.
Back in 1938, Cary Grant's character said "I just went gay all of a sudden!" to explain his fetching marabou-trimmed negligee: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_A8U6aUPW48
Kitty had known something was wrong for a while. Sal ignoring her when Ken came to dinner? I'll bet Sal's encounter in Baltimore made it more difficult for him to even, um, go through the motions with her. You could see a light go on when he went through the dance moves. She knows.
It's heartbreaking. They really care for each other–but Kitty wants & needs more than a best pal. It's too early to check the Voice for a Discussion Group for Wives of Gay Men. And she is hardly sophisticated enough to suggest some kind of Noel Coward "Arrangment."
That's "Arrangement."
(My kingdom for an edit button!)
Re the gaydar: My parents were in their early 30's in the early 60's (one of the reasons I love the show.) They certainly knew of homosexuality. In fact, about that time, my mother was friends with her hairdresser, who had a partner and poodles (we got puppies from them.) I remember Chuck quite well, and was aware, even at the age of six or seven, that he and his partner (wouldn't have used that word, though!) were 'different' and had a lifestyle / household that diverged a bit from our mom/dad/kids life.
By the time was eleven or twelve and heard the term 'homosexuality', I know that I immediately had a name for what I had seen in Chuck. But the point is, I could see it without having a name for it.
So, I was in the primary grades in 1963, living in a small town in Arizona. Kitty is an adult living in NYC, which was way more diverse and cosmopolitan (even though our town did have a hairdresser who painted his poodles' toe nails gold.)
I'm guessing she knew what she saw, even if she didn't have a name for it.
I think it would be realistic, though certainly sad, for Sal to stay closeted for several more years. It seems only Kitty has a motivation to split this up. Sal's been around men who cheat on their wives and might think that's a way to go here.
But a positive gay identity was pretty elusive in 1963 — even in 1983. The Mattachine Society began to protest gay discrimination in the early 1960s, and Albert Ellis started using the word "gay" with its modern meaning in his 1963 books ("Sex and the Single Man" and "The Intelligent Woman's Guide to Manhunting"). But I don't think much of this would permeate the closet until the 1970s.
Gender is a big theme and it relates to the larger theme about authority. The Europeanization of America (the Brits, Jai Alai, import cars) was introduced by Kurt's matter-of-fact "I'm a homosexual'' declaration last year. Sal is Italian and speaks the language. Moneypenny is ridiculed simply because he's British and in a support role at work. In a year, straight American men will be wearing (Beatle) wigs, if only for fun. The times they are a-changin' but never fast enough.
The acting in that scene was just incredible — Sal going through the dance routine and opened up and himself as he is able to be so rarely, and the changing look on Kitty's face as she realized what this meant. I really felt that we saw her realize her husband is gay in those few moments. She may not be saying the word "homosexual" to herself in her head — but she knows now, she knows. And she still loves him. And she's married to him. And she probably doesn't believe in divorce. And divorce would be humiliating under these circumstances. And she can't imagine what she should do, or what will happen in their marriage. Poor Kitty. Poor Sal. And yet they love each other. It's just a heartbreaking situation. And all shown through their faces and actions — almost none of this was gotten across through dialogue. I really admire actors who can do that.
#35 Curmudgeon
"Diverse" is the key word. There were people who were hip to the code and people who weren't, living right next door to each other. Since nobody was coming right out and saying it explicitly, there were segments of any population whose heads tings went over.
My mother, a housewife first in a large liberal college town and then in a small farm vommunity, was a huge fan of The Village People. It was only about five years ago that she found out they were gay icons.
Jeremy Lloyd was able to go to his bosses at the BBC (London;s a pretty big cosmopolitan town, too) and tell them with a straight face that Mr. Humphries wasn't a pouf, he was just a mama's boy.
It was an amazing scene. I agree with Elizabeth. If possible, it seems like the recognition on Kitty’s face increases as the scene progresses. Her recognition starts with “something’s wrong†but I think by the end of Sal’s performance she knows.
In 1963 people’s awareness about homosexuality probably ran on a spectrum. My mother from Iowa and living in Denver in 1963 is the exact age of Don Draper and had a number of gay acquaintances and friends. My father on the other hand was in complete denial. I could be wrong but I think the light bulb is fully on over Kitty’s head. What a great acting job all the way around. This show has the best acting on television – by far.
Phil, that is a great observation about Sal and the failed Patio commercial. Sal didn’t do anything wrong and yet it didn’t work. Not easy for Sal or for Kitty. It’s made all the more poignant because they are best friends and more functional than most of the MM marriages.
Sort of on topic, but different characters. Was it just me, or was "Ho-ho" just a bit too man crushing on "Patchy"?
Interestingly enough, I've know three Catholic couples of roughly that generation who found themselves in a similar position – the husband discovering his homosexuality. None of the three divorced, of course, because that just wasn't an option for them. Whatever their chances of getting an annulment from the church may or may not have been, they didn;t consider it an option even to seek one.
One couple stayed married and faithful (perhaps celibate; I don't know) until all the children were grown and out of the house. Then, although still married, they started living separate lives with new people.
One stayed together indefinitely, but in an open marriage.
The third stayed together and on the downlow until she died, after which he came out publicly.
They all seemed incredibly happy. It was hard on the child of the third marriage, since they hadn't filled her in and she learned about it in the heels of her mother's death.
Yeah, I've had that Kitty moment. She sees he's gay. Maybe she doesn't have a word for it, maybe she doesn't want to believe it. But there it is. It's unmistakeable.
You can't go back.
I'm sure that Kitty isn't fully comprehending, in the brief moments as Sal plays out the Patio commercial, what it is that two men can do together sexually, but the light certainly does come on, regarding what might very well be behind: "Sal … the past few months … something's wrong".
For me, the bedroom scene with Kitty and Sally, plays out in six distinct parts:
- "Pillow talk/frustrated wife" part
- "Confiding/professionally stressed-out husband" part
- "Supportive wife/pep talk" part
- Initial portion of the Patio commercial run-through
- The flamboyant finish
And finally, after everything's been said and done, Kitty's face and posture, as the scene ends. It's a combination of her fear, panic, disgust, confusion and silent wondering: "Just who the hell IS this man?!?".
The Patio ad was great. It meant that a "straight" man would have gotten the essence of Ann Maragret more exactly, and Sal's recreation of it "just missed". I think someone said "Something isn't quite right." It's a fake of the real thing.
I loved how Kitty's facial reaction of "something's not quite right" after Sal performed the Bye Bye Birdy routine was mirrored by the Patio commercial that Sal directed where something wasn't right either. Sal must be getting so nervous now. I'm glad Don is being a good friend to him.
Did anyone else notice that Kitty has the exact same nightdress as Trudy? I'm sure it is the same one. Kitty seems very much like an early seasons Trudy; sweet, loving and only just discovering that her husband is a big can of worms.
falafel, Kitty's is green, Trudy's is blue.
That someone was Roger. I LOVED that his only line in the whole episode is a cut to the chase/so simple the geniuses just can't figure it out obvious: "It's not Ann Margaret."
One of my favorite things to come out of season three so far is the Don/Sal dynamic now enriched with professional respect and an outsiders'… camaraderie? It would be easy for them to switch Sal's mancrush from Ken to Don, but they haven't and I hope they don't go there. So far, they've done a great job of making Sal more nuanced than Token Gay Guy.
Kitty knows SOMETHING but what her level of understanding is may not be clear. I bet as an Italian-American in Baltimore, she went to Catholic school – perhaps even an all-girls school. She did not go to DC or Philly or NYC after school, she stayed in Baltimore where Sal came home and plucked her. I think he chose her precisely for her lack of Big City sophistication and overall sweetness. Anyone like Joan clearly would be able to spot his leanings, even if he hadn't acted on them.
One of my favorite acting touches in the Kitty/Sal scene was after the run-through and Sal goes back to the bed. Sal pulls Kitty closer and her arm comes up, involuntarily, for a tiny moment, to ward off the embrace.
@Shawn – the one problem I have with that theory is that I know far more gay directors than straight ones (and there were plenty of them in musical comedy in that era too!) Their success at directing sexy/romantic scenes doesn't seem to me to have a lot to do with their sexual preference. I disagree with the premise that Sal is somehow too gay to direct a musical number!
I feel sorry for both Sal and Kitty. Sal married Kitty as cover, and in his head, the idea seemed perfect. They had been good friends since childhood, they knew each other well, and no one would think anything strange of him marrying the girl he had known for all his life, as opposed to some random woman he had only dated for a month. Sal had not factored in the reality of married life. He has strong emotions for Kitty. He loves her, but not in a romantic way. Despite his lack of romantic attraction, he does not want to hurt her.
Kitty knows something is wrong, but can't quite figure out what it is. I'm not sure she's put all the pieces together yet, but she's getting close. I wonder, if/when she figures it out, she will confront him, or pretend that she doesn't know.
It's a huge understatement, but this situation can't be easy for either one.
I don't think Sal's sexuality effected the patio ad, the reason the commercial failed is it was just a bad idea.
A little off topic, but my wife loved the look that Peggy gave Don as the failed patio meeting ended. No words exchanged but no words needed!
@40: "Was it just me, or was “Ho-ho†just a bit too man crushing on “Patchy�"
ho-ho was deeply worried about patchy– something about the thought of him taking balls to the face– THAT was the funniest line of the night.
Somehow I don't think Kitty knows yet, or wants to. This is a man she's in love with.
Cub …
That WAS the line of the night. LOL.
How long have Kitty and Sal been married? Has he just cooled to her in the past 6months? Maybe he is just realizing what he is, especially after the bellboy fiasco. Do we think he has had boy on boy before?
Couldnt stop thinking of the movie Far From Heaven.
I think she gets it-she puts the pieces together. Remember last season when they had Ken over and she was the third wheel? Kitty is perceptive and smart and probably knew Sal was a little different when they got married–now she has the final pieces of the jigsaw puzzle that was his interest in Ken, his domestic talents, and his lack of interest in sex.
@57 All indications are that Sal has never acted on his desires. If I had to guess, I think that the hotel incident caused his interest in Kitty to noticeably wane.
@50 I pretty much agree, but not sure he only married her as a cover — I think there was some hope and prayers involved that maybe the marriage would be okay, make him okay. I think we might be saying the same thing, but Kitty as only a beard seems more cynical and cruel that I think Sal is when it comes to his wife.
Nah, Sal is not that cold and calculated and I agree with Ms. Darkly that he didn't marry her thinking she'd make the perfect non-gay savvy beard so he could hide who he was because at that point HE didn't know exactly who he was, all he knew was that it terrified him. So I think he married her thinking she's a lovely woman he cares about and could be BFFs with, thinking that marriage could scare him straight and make him… right, chasing away the wrongness of it all.
I watched it again and I think Kitty believes, not that Sal is gay, rather that he is having an affair with the Patio actress doing the commercial. The truth is just not something she could ever allow herself to believe.
Interesting observation Glen, but I don't think that Kitty thinks that Sal is involved with the Patio actress. I thought this scene was amazing. I think that Kitty has sensed something 'off' about Sal since his return from Bal'more. As she watches him act out the commercial she sees that this isn't just a quick rehash of how the commercial would go, but a methodical note by note, nuance by nuance recreation of a young girl singing and purring like Ann-Margaret. I think Kitty knows that the performance is a little too convincing, too real, and definitely not a straight man's interpretation. I think if Sal was straight and he was describing the shot, he would not have completely embodied the actresses voice and sexiness that much–at least without doing it in a mocking manor, and he probably would have thrown in some "and them she does some more of this, blah-blah-blah". You know what I mean?
I think the horror/confusion in her face said it all. I don't think that she thinks he's been with a man, but I think she now realizes that she wasn't imagining things when Ken came to dinner. Poor Kitty. Poor Sal. I love these two.
I'm pretty sure that at that time, a lot of people believed that "the right woman" could turn a gay man straight (as opposed to awakening a bisexual man's previously dormant opposite-sex attraction capabilities, since that wasn't even on the radar). Even a lot of gay men bought it; I think Sal is one of those guys who thought that if he was married to a good woman, he'd just be able to "turn off" being gay like a switch, but the episode with the bellhop changed his mind about that pretty quick. Kitty, if she actually does realize what her husband's orientation is, may very well blame herself for it, and simply redouble her efforts to turn him on.
Wait… she can't?
Only Christina Hendricks has that power.
#67 And when Joan (Christina) kissed Sal, she didn't even bother to try.
Re above post, forgot to add as a reference point, Joan kissed Sal in Season 1 on election night
there are three gay icons I want to toch on. one is Paul Lynn – who was in Bye Bye Birdie as the befuddled Dad – and was gay enough that even in 1962/3 audiences could equate his femeninity with his ineffectiveness as a father/husband
another icon was Rock Hudson who a 7th grade classmate – in 1966 – told me his brother had seen kissing another man at a bar in The Village. I was 12 and knew all about 'queers' as my father called them. we learn – rightly or wrongly – from our parents and I learned about gays from my father – who hated them – luckily I also learned that my father was wrong about so many things that I never could accept his judgement on anything. my point is that Poor Kitty certainly would have been aware of gay men and may have thought of her husband in the same way as the third icon –
Liberace – who was as openly gay as one could have been back then – and may have said to herself 'OMG i'm married to a Liberace'